What a long strange trip it has been. I am beginning to see the glimmerings of the other side, a new sun establishing itself in the horizon.
I was married to my boys mother for almost 7 years, dated for 5 years previuosly and best friends for a year before that. I never thought she would run and hide my boys from me.
This is the sunrise peaking, I have finally found Parker and Truman and I am beginning the arduous journey of re-establishing my denied father-son relationship.
The last time I knew where they were was August 18th, 2004. This day was the day it all crumbled like the Berlin Wall. The difference was the Wall coming down was the opening up to a free world and the end of a struggle. The crumbling in this circumstance was the end of freedom and the beginning of a struggle.
I love you Parker & Truman. I always have and always will. I want yall to know that once we reunite, nothing will be able to separate us again. I will never turn yall away as your mother and my parents did to me. You will always have a place with me. I made a commitment to yall and I will never renege on that commitment. I apologize from the bottom of my heart that things turned out as they have and when yall find this, I hope you will ask your mother what she was thinking.
Parker, you received MY name as your middle name, you are a part of me just as my name is a part of me. Truman, you middle name is from MY fiction hero from "The Fountainhead" by Ayn Rand, your place was burned in my heart even before you were born.
I want yall to know I was there just as I will be again. I cut both of your umbilical cords. Parker,your birth was more complicated and that was all I could do but I was in the room the entire time eagerly awaiting your arrival. Truman, I was the first to hold you and went with you when you needed your first check-up on your birthday. Parker, I taught your mother how to change your diapers; a fact I am sure she will deny but seeing as how she denied yall your father I am not sure what her word is worth.
My point I what to make is that I LOVE YOU BOYS! We will be together again! I wanted to write this so when yall are old enough to search for the truth it will be here. I didn't tell about this because I don't want to convince you of anything negative about your mother, no matter how wrong she was. I am going to focus on us and how we can be together as father and sons. But I believe in the truth, like my email (vereverum) Vere Verum is Latin for 'the actual truth'. I will always provide you with the truth but sometimes you will have to be willing and able to seek it out for yourselves.
Forever & Always
Love,
Your Father
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