I don't even know how to begin but I will start with the fact I wanted both children very MUCH! My ex was incredible she gave birth to both of them natural...no drugs. I was in the room for the entire 14 hours.

I was only able to just cut the oldest sons umbilical cord because there were some minor complications with his birth. My second son, I caught! The mid-wife moved out of the way and I cut his umbilical cord. Soon the mid-wife suspected Truman had Meconium aspiration syndrome and I went with the mid-wife to ensure my son's safety was taken care of. This was planned by me and my ex because there was mention of this possibility before the birth.. I have always been an active father until she met her new husband.

I was out of town working at a factory and it was my scheduled time to phone my son's. We use to make up story's. He would start and then I would add on to what he started. I was like a live mad-lib and my youngest, he was only one at the time and had not yet begun speaking, would be on the phone listening and laughing. Well it was August 18, 2004 and a man answered the phone at 6 pm and told me my sons were asleep and he wasn't going to wake them. I asked who he was and he said "none of your fucking business" and I have never spoke to them again until the courts finally found them. My 2 hour visits 2x a month began in May 2009.

Sept. 21 2009 my oldest turned 12 and I had a visit Sept 19th. I gave him a card, a gift, and cash which he left in the parking lot. Last visit he wanted the card and I explained I didn't bring it because I didn't think he was going to take anything from me and he said he said he wanted and I told him I would bring it next time ( Sat. Nov. 28th) I gave it to him and he through it away. So If left the card and $50 cash because he said he was tired of my 'harassing' him.

We use to go camping, my oldest helped me build a 200 square foot organic garden ( my youngest was not born yet), we rode bikes together and even in a parade one time. My youngest sons teachers would tell me that they knew it was almost lunch time because he started getting excited that I was coming. I had lunch with him 3 or 4 days a week and we played. His teachers loved when I showed up.

I left her because we were arguing TOO much an I was raised that way and didn't want my boys to have to experience that trauma too! I thought we might be able to figure out how to co-parent until she got married and hid for 6 years!

Well too many memories flashing through my head now but I REALLY DO THANK YOU FOR TAKING THE TIME TO READ EXPERIENCE.

David